Well!
My life has quickly become a whole lot more interesting and
exciting! Developments have been developing at a great rate of development.
Over the last 12 months I have tried to keep myself from getting into a
relationship. I know I am not ready yet – I have to mature, get a well-paid
job, a car and a life. I am good friends with some very lovely girls, some of
whom I have wondered whether I could have a future with. Ultimately none have
been really suitable (which is good, as I am not ready). Then, I somehow
started chatting online to a girl I used to go to uni with. I had liked her
back then, but she was seeing someone, and I was a social failure. As we
talked, we found we really got along well, and had an awful lot in common –
likes, tastes and outlook on life. We talked for hours, and then again a short
time later, and then again, until we began talking into the early hours of the
morning every single day. You can imagine my excitement, as she is a fantastic
girl – sweet, caring, beautiful and very friendly. I was not able to stop my
heart from flying off as I became quite enamoured by her.
Eventually I felt I had to let her know how I was feeling,
even though I was not ready for a relationship. She also felt the same way and
was in a similar situation. So here we are – close friends with feelings for
each other, but no idea what the future will hold. It’s hard to sit still!
